NaNoWriMo

And so I have finished the NaNoWriMo word count of 50k, by getting to 51k instead. I’m proud of myself for managing it but now I am a little lost as to what to do. I have not actually finished my novel yet, as I have lost sight of where the fuck it is going, but I am hoping to get through editing and adding what is missing, making sure to stop this piece of crap from staying crap and to become something worthwhile.

I’m not sure how to go about doing all this as I am tired out. Perhaps after a good night’s sleep I’ll be happier with what I’m doing, so I might leave it til tomorrow to play with. As for people seeing it; not until I’ve started editing, at the moment it is description and confusion and even I can barely decipher what the hell I am talking about in it.

 

Это как дважды два

“It’s as easy as two times two”

So, a bit of a gap between this entry and the last one. What has changed since then you may ask? Currently only a few things. My portfolio is practically done, one presentation is out of the way and now I can properly start on the marked presentation for Sara’s class. That one should be fun, putting the DVD together for it is going to take at least a week and a half, starting now.

I have managed to watch Battle Royale, going to watch Pan’s Labyrinth soon I promise. I have got through a few of the films, just not the one’s I mentioned last time, which is a bugger. I really should get on with watching the films I wanted to watch in the first place.

I have also managed to stop biting my nails for a bit, which is really good but then I keep scratching myself and it hurts a lot more. Sucky but it’s better for me in the long run. I just want to get longer nails to try and see how it is to have them, see if I like it or not.

Well, this was just a check in stop. I had better get back to work. Take care!

Si hoc legere scis, nimium eruditionis habes.

Just to be different, I will tell you what that means at the end of this blog post. I bet you’re going to skip to it now.
So, what has been happening? Well, not much really. I got to watch The Crow again after years finally; I love that movie and find the whole thing one of those stories you just wish you could believe in. I have also seen Splinter and The Thaw so no doubt I am now paranoid about having bugs near me or getting splinters. That will last all of two more days.

Have two more movies not borrrowed from Ad to watch this weekend; Apocalypse Now and The Pianist. I a trying to get hold of The Beach but it is being a stubborn and impossible title to get hold of, though the soundtrack is now in my possession. Bloody brilliant soundtrack to it, can’t stop listening to it and I love every minute of it, even if I zone out a bit. That was a fuck of a sentence wasn’t it?

I still have Battle Royale, Dogma, Pan’s Labyrinth, Benny & Joon, Let the Right One In and a selection of movies I have actually already seen yet want to rewatch to go through, not to mention tidy my room, sort out my word count, do my critiques for an assignment and start on my presentations and essays for the end of this calendar year so I can have everything done and dusted ready for 2010 which is scarily around the corner.

What else has been the happenings lately? Well today, the 13th, is a Friday (spooky! not) and it is also TWLOHA day. As a translation that is “To Write Love On Her Arm” day. TWLOHA is an organisation that deal in supporting people with depression or those suffering from addiction, self-harm and various other issues of that ilk. I have indeed written LOVE on my arm, in felt pen too so I shall be pretty pink for hours, and I will post a picture of it.

There we go, my picture of it. And yes, it is in purples and pinks, not something I’m used to using but it means a lot to me when I see these colours that it had to be the choice. Missi wrote on my arm in biro not long afterwards with Love and Ai, which is the Japanese for Love. It’s nice to know that even when she’s not feeling well she will participate in something like this. I don’t blame her for not writing on her own arm though, it is a bastard to get off.

I have been having a few more moments of unnecessary reflection lately and I believe that may have something to do with the people around me and the changes in the weather.I am becoming annoying in tune to it and it is starting to wind me up. Thankfully I have the word count for up to the 15th sorted but I need to add more to it to get near the 50k I am aiming for. I am currently halfway there and I am not about to give up on it, I refuse to; this is the first time I have ever gotten this far and I am determined to do it. I mostly think of it in terms of “this is an assignment” and that helps to motivate me, as I know this novel is not only for fun but the one I will use for my writing the novel assignment once it is edited.

I also tend to keep skipping things lately, funny that.

Mum and Dad are currently travelling to Orlando from Jacksonville, ready for their flight home tomorrow which will land here on Sunday. It will be good to have them back in the country though I imagine Dad will have started crying as they left my sister’s, since he’s the type to do that. Hope Travis, Lilly and Michael are alright, they’re young and it must hurt a bit more for them, though I think Michael is a bit too oblivious to things right now. On other family news, my Niece, Vicky’s, little baby girl had her operation and everything seems alright. Gracie is an adorable name and we can’t wait to meet her once she’s allowed out of the hospital.

Probably won’t be for a while yet, but still, the idea is lovely.

But, yes, this has been my rant for the day. I am going to go away and attempt to nap again as I seem so tired, perhaps see about writing a bit of fanfiction. I will admit I have a gay porn scene to write that I seem to be procrastinating worse than anything else.

Oh, yes, the meaning of my title today:

“If you can read this, you have too much education.”

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Listening to: Orbital – Beached
via FoxyTunes

Wenn es im Sommer schneit

“When it snows in summer”

As in “when it snows in summer, I’ll give a fuck”.

So what is currently happening? Well apart from my body deciding it no longer wants food or sleep, not much. My parents are due home from Florida on Sunday and I cannot wait, as I miss them a lot.

The situation in the house is good, as long as I forgot the other two people Missi and I live with. I like it this way, even if I am called an over-reactor for the fact I’m annoyed at someone for not listening and they do not listen to the problem, which exacerbates it. In general, means I am much better off.

I do over-react to some things, like being touched by Darth Vader at Expo. I did nearly pass out, yes, and I did get to do it twice; that was the point when I realised I can never do that again until I am a size 10 and wearing a great costume. So I am determined to do it, I will do it and nothing is going to stop me.

Another topic in the “when it snows in summer” category is the idea of a love life. I’ve seen a lot of people recently starting to pair up again and whilst I am immensely happy for them I can in no way see that happening for me because, and this will sound strange, I have absolutely no desire for it. I may have my moments of extreme agitation solved with a bit of alone time but I find myself hiding away from anything to do with partners. I am notoriously bad with relationships, they ruin me and I am in no mood to play stupid buggers when I need to be concentrating on my life, my religion, my work and my assignments. I have to concentrate on getting better really.

I have such a headache lately; I’m not sure what the issue is. I also get Ichi-type pains through my mouth, which makes me think I’ve watched the film one too many times as I am now getting phantom pains of the needle through the bottom of my mouth. Makes me cringe, especially as it causes dribbling and I’m pretty much a fuck when it comes to that as is.

So, to conclude my little ranty rant today I will note something; I love German accents, the German language and the way they talk but dear god I cannot for the life of me learn it! So, I will learn Swedish, Polish, Japanese and Thai instead, slowly and painfully.

С глаз долой – из сердца вон

“Away from the eyes – out of the heart.”

No, I’m not necessarily a firm believer in this, but it makes an interesting title and a starting point for today. I have awoken late again and showered, so I am still somewhat damp (I love showers a bit too much sometimes, I think) so this house is currently, as my brother would say, fucking freezing.

Oh lords, I mentioned my brother. Truth be told he’s almost always out of sight, but really never out of my mind. No matter how much we argue or how evil we are to each other (note here he’s only ever really hit me once, and given me a black eye once by accident with something he was holding that came out of his grip, other times he just threatened to and scared me a little) I love my brother to bits. He can be harsh and nasty but that is his way of trying to get me to stop doing what it is he thinks I am doing wrong, even if eating is a process I need to go through with to survive.

Other things out of sight and maybe out of mind currently include my word count for the day. I did more than I expected to yesterday so I do not know how I am going to compete with that today, since I feel so lazy! It would be easy to skip a day and do the entire word-count on monday but that would just kill me, so I think I had better get the words done today. I am at 12,900 and need to be at 13,336 by the end of the day. That should not be a problem at all really; I just want to try and get closer to 14,000 today instead of just 13,336. It would be a lot easier, granted, to just write bits and pieces throughout the day but come on, really, do you expect me to be that clever?

I think this is just another piece of rambling today. I should make myself tea, settle with my nanowrimo novel and start the word count, perhaps some cheese on toast to aid it along. Also, another note to self, still have to tell my housemate that I am not driving her to the airport in December and to get her mother to stop texting me. Very close to changing my phone number just in general. Want a new phone too but cannot afford it. Damnit.

Zatrzymaj świat, ja wysiadam!

“Stop the World, I want to get off!”

Welcome to my new blog, as I have deleted the old one and you now have to deal with this one. As for the title, I found it on a website but I would love to thank Marcin, my dear one, for making sure the translation was what I thought it was meant to be.

Note to self, learn Polish.

So really, this post is to get myself out there again and to point out that the title I have chosen is not just for the giggles, but because at the moment it has meaning.  Expect a lot of random talk in here and probably a lot of things you do not wish to hear, but this is me, I rarely limit myself and mostly because if I limit myself I confuse myself.

Are you confused yet?

First on the agenda is the fact I have too much really going on in my mind and I would love for my brain to halt and let me relax for a bit. I have assignments to do though strangely they do not seem as numerous as I would have imagined, even if they are unusual. I have a novel in the works which is making no sense, thank you nanowrimo, so I have a lot of editing to do after November.

On account of other things, it seems my libido has decided to pick up randomly. Joyous it is not, as it will drop again in another week or so, for no reason. I cannot really even blame menstruation as technically I have stopped that for a while due to the lovely implanon implant which has saved my hide many times so far because I am considerably calmer.

Though I think a lot of people who have talked to me recently will know a lot calmer is not necessarily calm, but less likely to act on what I really want to do.

I am currently waiting for little sister Missi to come home, but in the mean time I have the lovely KC, the sweet David and the amazing Ad to keep me company, even if it is only on MSN or by text, though I did end up watching Charlie and the Chocolate factory, both the old version and the new version, today. I much prefer the new version, Johnny Depp plays a very creepy Willy Wonka.

Makes me worry really, how much he changes between roles, never would have realised it really until then. Very creepy man, but an amazing actor and yummy to boot.

I shall end my blog post here because, really, this is just a random entry to keep me thinking and to also make you wonder what the hell I am on and why I am not sharing any of it.

You love me really.